Can I just stop time for the day. Allow myself to just sit and rot away. Just let me sink deeper and deeper into this empty pit, of sadness, weakness, lonely bliss.
Please stop calling my name, please stop putting things in your mouth. Please don't ask me to sit with you. I can't. I just can't do it today. I can't be a mother. I can' be a wife, a friend, an aunt, a daughter. I can't exist. Just for the day, PLEASE.
I can't be like this now. I need to be quick, smart, happy, loving. My kids need me. But I just want to be left alone and have everything that needs to be done be done. No amount of coffee can get me through this. This sucks so bad.
Feel better feel better feel better feel better feel better feel better. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
The clock keeps ticking. Things keep happening. Life is slipping away.
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